Hey Hong... duno if u'll come into my blog... but anyway.... Happy 20th B'day to ya... thou' cant cel with ya... still hope u'll enjoy urself k!!! have fun!!!

Just had thermodynamics quiz today... easier than what i expected... but still got some qns tat i duno how to do... shd i say i studied quite hard for it??? haha... not much mood to study... esp when exams are coming... 33 more days according to meijun... 1st paper on 2nd nov... siao liao... step stressing me!!! & jason's nick is counting down everyday too... argh!!! what shall i do??? when shall i start studying???

went back to office yesterday evening... visited jo... chermaine... irene... was tinking if i shd go up... but since i haven seen them for quite some time... maybe shd go & say HI... there's a new starbucks on the ground level... on the shop tat has been vacant all along while i was working... suddenly... its packed with students mugging... the seats are quite nice... maybe i can mug there too... den can meet siguan & tracy they all for lunch!!! hee... ideal... but tat si guan always remind me of exams!!! argh!!! stress me up!!!

still got some time... so decided to pop by to msd... still as busy as usual... and tat evelyn say HI to me... eeks!!! but i tink she's okay la... just overly friendly... but at least friendly better than dao... sze lin still as busy... clearing her desk... shd have got jun to help her tidy!!! hee... jun will pile all her papers tog... and tats wat sze lin did!!! stack all tog & dump them into the melting box... and evenlyn offer to lend her space to keep her things... but i dun see any space whereby evelyn can offer to put sze lin's stuff... she's overloaded with her own stuffs too!!!

junie's on leave & i didnt see ke xin... saw wailei... dennis... and zacc!!! haven seen him for quite sometime... and the 1st thing i saw him was cant help laughing... coz he has grown fat!!! haha!!! or maybe its his new haircut... or he became fairer... but anyway... time for him to stop gg for supper at geylang... haa!!!

went to meet dear, jun & sharon at suntec... watched cinderella man... slow pace movie... nice but kinda bored... maybe my life's been so slow paced tat slow things starts to irritate me!!! hee... tot the show can go faster... its abt 2hrs 20 min... beginning is a bit sian la... but ending was great!!! corde watched it in LA mths ago!!!

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my stupid laptop... why shd u always find trouble with me at the most critical time??? was doing my buz finance quiz online when there's a system error... arghhhhhhhhhhhhh... and the msg is "win32systemerror, the system will shut down in 1 min's time!" arghhhhhhhhhhh... shd i be happy tat lucky i was at the last 2 qns & the not so happy thing was if i had time to refer to my notes, i'll have scored full marks for the quiz... becoz the system will shut down in 1 min & the rule is the quiz cannot be continued at another time... once i start i have to finish it... so means??? i have to finish it!!! so i just use the last 1 min and anyhow click at the ans... true enuff... i scored 17/20 coz one of them carry 2 marks... arghhhhhhhhhh... y of all time??? IDIOT!!! let me just forget abt this... dont let this spoil my day!!! today is fri!!! and no sch for me!!!

yesterday after lab...was walking with hwee ying to lecture hall... came across this car in the ach carpark... BMW, car plate no SFA 9588K... tink its a teacher's car... coz there's 2 prams inside... so me & hwee ying deduced tat this person has a pair of twins... haha... gd inferential skill right??? anyway... it was clamped on its 4 wheels... everyone was looking at it... and me... so KPO... of coz muz go n join into the crowd... there's a warning tat says "This vehicle has been immobilised by means if a wheel clamp, do not attempt to drive"... so we assume tat this teacher did not pay carpark $$... tats why they clamp his car... anyway its so dui lian tat ur car is being clamped...

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warning letter for the clamped BMW!!! 

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jun & hwee ying have all went back... jun went home & hwee ying went back to hall... left me alone... coz i inisist on attending my buz finance lecture which is after 2 hrs break & another lec... but i like to attend the lecturer's lecture... becoz its onli 30 min & i can understand fully... hopefully i wont fall aslp... haha...

since im not coming to sch on fri... coz the tutorial was cancelled... i shall make up for it by staying back to listen to materials structure & characterization of materials lecture... hee... anyway time seems to pass faster when im in the lib... chatting with tang, dear & jackson... hwee ying was ard but she has went back to her wonderful slp now... since its raining... lib is freaking cold... or am i gg to fall sick soon??? ive been feeling cold ever since i stepped into the mrt this morn... wore my jacket the whole day... except just now in canteen... coz its realli damn hot... felt so weak yesterday when i was attending buz finance tutorial... maybe coz the rm is cold & im hungry... i did ate soon kueh before i left hse... but still feel hungry... and my hands & legs feel numb... n my fingers can barely pressed the keypad when i was smsing dear... n have to copy tutorial ans... but im a strong gal... always wont say "i cannot do it" unless im realli dying... so i continue to copy the ans... handwriting very ugly but at least i can still read what im scribbling... left the rm and felt better... initialli i tot i may not be able to even leave the rm... but i still can push myself to walk... and accompany huiling to go n ask the tutor some qns... i tink its becoz of the cold air... so die die must wear jacket today...

exams are coming soon... in a month's + 1 wk's time... so scary... and i seem to have a lot of distractions... there seems to have a lot of things in my head... a lot of qn marks... but i dun seem to be able to get the ans... and the person who can provide me with the ans just simply refused to ans my qns... either tat or keep denying or just side track to talk abt other unimpt things... is there a communication breakdown or he just simply refuse to talk to me on impt issues??? why cant we solve small issues at a time? or must we wait until the issues get bigger & bigger until its unsolvable??? den its time to call it quits??? or until then is he willing to solve the probs??? i begin to feel tired... up to a pt where i just dun wanna say anything... but is it realli gd to bottom up everything? i noe eventualli the volcano will erupt & its beginning to show signs of eruptions now... i can onli keep telling myself tat study is the most impt what comes after are all extras... tat will make me feel better & stay focus on my studies... i seriously feel tat i tink too much... this shdnt be what a 20 yr old gal is tinking... a 20 yr old gal shd be enjoying her young adulthood... play as much as possible & enjoy as much as she can??? why are all these things bothering her & hindering her from a healthy growth??? sooner or later she'll get used to all these & nth much will affect her already??? just like last time... once im immune to sth... i'll get used to it and life still goes on... no thoughts of having any changes or major disruptions until something big really happens... but i was onli 17 & 18 then... can i still do it now??? im not sure too... just dun tink too much!!! (knocking my head) and study!!! clear all my exams & what comes after next will just come naturally!!! certain things cant be too forceful...

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jun msg on thu to ask me if i wanna go back to office to eat Big Bowl on fri... Big Bowl is reali nice... the noodles are chewy & i love the shrimp dumplings... thou jun prefer the dumplings from Rasa Novena... but i prefer Big Bowl's becoz its bigger & cheaper... and the soup is nice too... and the xiao long bao is nice... ate once with zacc... but i cant order the noodles & xiao long bao tog unless im eating with a big eater... its realli too filling... meet up with si guan, tracy & davis... sharon came after class... & jun... our usual lunch gang... but this time w/o daphne... tink she got class... NUS's sem break is this coming wk...

francis has left UOB... not much ppl whom we can visit... except sze lin, junie, dennis, kexin, charlene, kim & alex... the rest are all new ppl... and wai lei went for holz again with his gf to Bangkok... so nice of them... always travel here & there...

didnt went up coz we bumped into sze lin & kim on the way back... they went out for lunch... tink there's not ppl left upstairs... decided to go taka shopping... so nice to shop with sharon & jun... tink we shd shop tog more often... the 3 of us actualli complained tat we r damn broke... and sharon even keep all her cards at home... so tat she wont spend money except on eating... haha... but guess wat... she spent the most... becoz she still carried $50 cash with her... but those money was reserved for her sushi buffet next wk... hee... looks like she still needs to draw money!!! i bought 2 sets of pierre cardin bra... Isetan has sales... one set for $10... and the design was what i wanted to buy... gd catch!!!

still impressed by jun... she realli has this "ding li"... tat is... not spending any money... and she realli did it... realli pei fu sia... looks like i shd realli keep my cards at home & bring only $10 out for makan... den i will have no choice but to stop buying... hee...

shop till 6pm... meeting cordelia & jinli for dinner at 7.15pm at Tampines... time to go off... & jun has to leave for family dinner... sharon is gg home for dinner... reach tamp at 7.00pm... evening train was real fast sia... walked ard for a while while wiating for corde... & jinli msg me at 7pm tat he just booked out... lucky still got corde with me... went to cafe cartel... ate this very big chicken cutlet... decided to give the pork ribs a skip becoz everytime i go cartel i'll eat the pork ribs... sian already... love the bread there... n yummy yummy cheese...

chatted till 10 plus... den went home... i tink its the most fulfilling day thru'out the whole wk...

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Today is mid autumn festival... zhong chiu jie kuai le... when i was young... i didnt noe chong chiu jie = mid autumn festival... always tot it was mooncake festival or lantern festival... becoz all i could associate with the occasion was mooncakes & lanterns... used to have very big lanterns with the ribbons at the side one... (if u noe which one im toking abt) dun like those with batteries and music becoz they seem so fake... wanna play den must play with fire... tats the fun part... but haven been cel the day for very long already... tink ever since sec sch days... used to be playing candles at the playground & my greatest achievement was to fill the 2 sides of the slide with lighted candles... n my childhood frenz... who r mainly my pri sch frenz staying ard my neighbourhood... suddenly tot of steve... wonder hows he... he's shifted hse again & refuse to give me his new add... but still... every yr's chinese new yr, b'day & x'mas... i'll still receive his greeting cards w/o fail... so thoughtful of him... i tink he seriously had crush on me at tat time... haha... very bhb... but i'll continue to look forward to receiving his greeting cards during this 3 occasions...

anyway... ate a lot today... went for lunch with dear & his family, & david's family... got to play with baby & meimei... david's dad came back from HK... and im considered super lucky to see him... becoz he only came back a few times a yr & each time is only for a few days... went to mouth kitchen at toa pa yoh safra... the food is nice & there's desert buffet... safra members has 15% discount... why m i advertising for them??? haha... but gd place to have high tea... can tell my bro to stop gg crystal jade... i eat until sian already...

dear send me home 1st becoz he has to visit his grandma at TTSH... but tink she's fine...

bought teochew mooncakes for dear's mum... thou dear tinks tat i shdnt buy... but i tink its basic courtesy to buy little things during occasions like this... just a little thought... be it for show or not... at least it shows my thoughts... anyway his mum bought pomelo for my parents too... actualli daddy wanna buy from the famous bakery from hougang but it was all sold out when he reach there... didnt noe it was realli that HOT!!! haha... by the way teochew mooncakes & the original mooncakes tat outside are selling is diff... its not the one with the lotus paste but its like dou sa bing like tat... a bit saltish... less sweet & less fattening... so tot tats the best gift for his mum... healthier & something diff... since his sis already bought Raffles Hotel mooncakes... strong recommendation from edmund was durian paste mooncakes from four season hotels... but tats a bit too ex...

dear came over for dinner yesterday... we went east coast park in the morning... intending to go blading... dear's off day... decided to do sth outdoor... was tinking of gg sentosa on his off day but not this sat la... he only told me on thu... not much time to plan... maybe next mth or wat loh... but in end we didnt blade... coz the blades are spoilt... haven been using for yrs... so the plastics crack... so i still duno how to blade... dear wanted to teach me & my bro still laugh at me... say so old den learn... haha...

walked along the beach... enjoyed the sea breeze... nice morning sun... and den walked home... realli relaxing!!!

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moon cake... heard abt the story tat ppl used to put small notes in moon cakes to deliver their thoughts... to express their love??? tats olden ppl's saying... 

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Pomelo... something that is a must for mid-autumn fest too... the bigger one is given by dear's mum... small one is cuter i tink...  

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this is "la gao"... not very sure of the name also... but i noe granny used to eat it during mid-autumn fest... now tat she's passed away... mummy still bought it for her every yr... so everytime i saw this... i'll tink of granny!!! 

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dear!!! cool??? 

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cordelia!!! haven saw her for long thou' she's also in NTU...  

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chocolate truffle... jinli's fav.. yummy yummy choc... super thick... a bit bitter & according to jinli... there's a bit of liquor... also from cafe cartel...  

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raspberry cheese cake from cafe cartel... 50% off after 9pm 

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me & jun... taken in front of a new jap shop in taka!!! 

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Sharon & me!!! 

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went to my cousin's full mth celebration yesterday... dear went with me... if not i'll be quite bored there... used to keep on sticking to my cousin, joycelyn & her bf... but i seem to be interupting them... so paiseh... but if i don't... i duno what else i can do... but now there's dear with me... not scared anymore... & grandma has been calling to ask dear to come along... bought some baby clothings for my baby cousin... angel's sooooo cute... n so small... so delicate tat i dun even dare to carry her... looks fragile... like anytime will break!!! haha!!!

seems like a meaningful day yesterday... as long as dear's with me... everyday will be meaningful... been so long since i went tanning... went to david's condo to tan.. n swam 2 rounds... haha... i cheated... my one round is the width of the pool... not the length... tink length is more than twice the width... oops!!! better dun exposed myself... haha... had a nice tan... dear didnt get much tan... too bad... i look better... quite even... but i sprayed a lot of tanning oil too... had breakfast before we went tanning... mummy woke up early to fry noodles for me & dear... so nice of her... thanx mummy...

was swimming half way... karen came back with her daughters... dear & i went bathing & get changed... need to go airport to fetch david's mum... she went HK... and happen to be in the same flight as jacky chan... he came out of the exit with police surrounding him... dun tink anyone is gg there to see him... but still... they surround the place as if there will be tons of fans there... try to take a pic of him but not successful... anyway he's not handsome at all... so i wont feel heartpain even if i didnt manage to take his pic... if its andy lau or ekin cheng... i will definitely be very xin tong... and jacky chan's complexion is realli damn bad... (not as if mine's damn gd) but i can say aloud tat mine's better!!! his make up artist is damn gd!!! haha... but anyway... he's old le... so cant blame him too... scarly mine's even worse when im at his age... touchwoood!!!!

been playing with david's daughter for 3 consecutive days!!! feel so tired... n drained... thou' they're fun to be with... playing with him just makes me forget all the worries... maybe tats how parents feel when they see their kids running ard... and playing with them no matter how tired they are... its the kind of happiness tat no one else can experience... nothing else can beat playing with kids... its just so wonderful... i dun mind if we can do it every weekend...

went to suntec to buy this balloon for baby... a very weird balloon tat looks like a flying saucer... tink only carrefour & taka is selling it... and its quite cheap... $5...expected much more... like $12 or sth... tink the trend is dying out soon... but of coz to me... it seems so new!!! like sth "in"... im so sua gu... was so fasinated when i 1st saw it... haha... went to queensway to look for dear's track shoes... and baby called... oops... i mean karen called becoz baby is looking for dear... coz dear promised to buy the toy for her & go over to play with her... now... i realli noe why ppl say cant cheat kids... coz they realli rmb... so what abt adults? can u cheat adults becoz they are old & memory's failing? haha... just a penny of tots...

suddenly there's so many babies ard me... and my lovely niece glenda... didnt see her at grabdma hse on sun... coz it rains... so my cousin didnt bring her out... she's even worse... or maybe the worse kid i came across so far... coz everytime she saw me... she'll start crying... coz i didnt get to see her often... so i seem like stranger to her... muz see her consecutively so tat she'll rmb tat im her aunt... "Ku Ku" she'll call me... eeks... i sound so old... but what to do? i am old what... hee...

suddenly got the urge to have a kid too... watching them grow up is the happiest thing a mum will experience... maybe the dad wont feel much... becoz men are less sensitive... n i tink gals are cuter... and all the babies & kids ard me are all gals... just feel like playing with them more... so cute & lovely...

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oki... i didnt only took one pic... i took a few... haha...  

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enough of dear & baby... now is my turn... didnt manage to take with baby... but i took a pic of myself before dear come & fetch me to grandma hse... i noe im vain!!! 

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baby playing with milk bottle... & she keeps calling dear "pa pa"... does dear realli looks like her "pa pa"? 

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dear & baby~~~ 

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had a chat with dear on msn last nite... dun understand why he refuse to tok to me face to face... maybe msn is easier to express one's feelings... personally... i feel this way... coz i can just type whatever i can... n say whatever i wan... w/o looking at the person... i can feel free to express myself... finali say sth tat ive been wanting to say... n finalli... he's listening to me... w/o interuptions like tv etc... he can better concentrate n nv side track... finalli!!!

finalli... me n dear change the same sentiments... tat we tink he shd change job... but this may not be the time... this job is affecting our r/s... n its tiring him out... n me too...

went to david's place to collect car... n played with baby n her sis... its been long since i realli enjoyed myself... i mean to throw away all my silly thoughts... n just play with them... running ard the playground... walking in the reverse directions up the stairs n even up the slide... all sorts of challenges set for me... but i believe i can conquer... seeing them happy... i feel happy too... i believe dear share the same thoughts too... why cant dear just shake away all thoughts abt work n family... n just relax... i may seem irritating to him by keep asking him to keep me company... but my main objective is for him to breathe some fresh air... its not nice to coop himself at home... after a day's work... all work n no play makes jack a dull boy... for me... the more stress i m... the more i wanna escape from stress... n gg out to a peaceful area... like my fav place... esplanade n airport... makes me stare blankly n stop tinking abt everything... my mind just went blank... as if the world has stop spinning... it feels great... but of coz... after tat its still back to reality... but its always nice to stop for a while b4 one moves on... rmb i used to tell si guan "to rest is to prepare urself for the road ahead"... i hope tat dear understands...

i duno what he's thinking n i'll nv noe what he's tinking if he's just gg to keep everything to himself... why cant he just open up to me? we're a couple... i hate to guess what's on his mind... its tiring n i dun even noe if i've guessed correctly... im not the kind of gf who just tink of play n fun... who only noe how to go shopping n whin at every single thing tat doesnt follow my way... im not onli willing to share the happiness with him... but his sorrows as well... 2 heads r always better than one...

as far as possible... i do not wanna interfere into his financial area becoz i believe its the most sensitive part... but i hate to see someone who is slogging like hell with a minimal amt of pay... i always believe tat if u get this amt of pay... u do this amt of work... thou' i noe its hard to find jobs nowadays... n these jobs r even harder to find... but still it shdnt go very far from it... is he gg to neglect his gf or even go to the extent of losing his gf for this kind of job... is it worth it??? seriously... i tink he shd change his job soon... becoz i feel tat this job wont bring him very far... i noe he's just not gg to stick to this for the rest of his life..

what attracts me to him at the very beginning is not his looks, his $$ or his love for me etc... but his perserverance... his hardworking-ness... i noe he's willing to work hard... he has the drive to attain his goals... someone who has his own directions... n noe what he's doing... definitely not someone who is born with a silver spoon... n rely on his parents to arrange his own life for him... i always believe tat u fight for ur own happines... no one can decide what u r in the future... u r what u wan urself to be...

im gg to fight for my own happiness... im gg to set my own directions... n a path tats the same as dear is tat we'll work towards our goal of starting our own family... we will achieve our goals... n i still rmb a promise tat i gave him... in fact i will try not to break my promise... "i will be with u no matter what happens!!!" its this promise tat hold on to me until now... n its gg to hold on to me forever...

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Is it true that all guys don't like to listen to gals talk? Why is it that everytime when I wanted to talk to him abt something... He will divert or distract me... and stop me from talking? is it realli that torturing to talk to me???

Is it that I've change ot he's changed??? i admit that im easily irritated nowadays... and sometimes very frustrated... with what? i dun even noe... if u r reading my blog now... dear... this is the only way i can make my feelings known to u!!! im losing my patience!!! i try not to give him a black face... thou' he knows sooner or later i will... but at the rate tat he's irritating me... how can i ever NOT give him a black face???

i admit that im wasnt like this when we started out... and sometimes i realli hate myself for being like this... but where's the dear tat i knew too??? if he werent like this... i wont be like tat too... whatever tat he's doing is directly affecting my mood... am i too demanding or expecting too much from him? to just spend a little time with him... is it realli that difficult??? does he realli need to be so calculative that sat & sun... i can only occupy him for a day... i noe he needs sometime for myself but we used to be meeting each other almost everyday... why is he suddenly so cold to me? isnt it understood that weekends are for galfrenz? don't all guys do that? and that's a promise from him... am i realli too demanding? don't i even have the right to demand him to accompany me??? who am i exactly to him??? is he going to throw me at home everyday? why shd i even need to have a bf then? where's the love btw us??? the kind of sparks that we used to have? where has it gone to? is he not putting in any effort? or that im trying too hard to keep it going??? why am i bombing myself with so many qns? can anyone ans me??? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i cant even ans them myself!!! im breaking down soon... i dun tink i can last much longer if this continues... i dont mind how bad his family treats me... but what's most impt is he himself... if he's gg to treat me the same way as them den what's the pt of me holding on??? to a dying r/s???

am i realli gg to give up so easily... ive come so far... trying hard to struggle... to fight for my happiness... what do i get in return? i've always tink that whatever i've scarificed... i dun expect much return... but im beginning to have expectation... but i noe... the greater the expectation is... the more disappointment i may get...

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went to Pin Guan's xiao yuan yan chang hui (sch concert) last thu... with jun, hwee ying & felicia... actualli didnt realli like Pin Guan initially... keep tinking tat he's not as famous as guang liang... thou they used to be tog as a team... but guang liang is more recognized afterall... esp after his "tong hua"... which i used it as my hp ringtone... so i get to hear the song a few times a day... hee... i simply love that song... n the mtv... maybe u guys tink tat im overdoing it... haha...

but i begin to like pin guan... tink he's quite talented... can play guitar & sing at the same time... and all his songs are very nice... very easy to catch the beat... and he's friendly too... but too bad... no photo taking nor handshake with him... actualli can shake hands with him but im sitting too far in... hwee ying manage to touch his sleeves... whoever shook hands with him can no need to wash hands for one wk le... so precious!!!

was still tinking if we shd go to the concert... coz there's superstar finals too... on the very same day... and its telecasted on the tv... but might as well watch live right? superstar finals can always watch the repeat one nor tape it down loh... anyway i support kelly poon thou' she didnt win... coz i tink she has more wu3 tai2 mei4 li4... but tat doesnt mean i dun like wei lian... thou' everywhere is talking abt him... and nasty comments tat he won becoz ppl sympathize with him... i tink he has his own specialities too... of coz he sang well too... but being a singer isn't just abt singing... there are certain x-factors la... tat i tink kelly can do better... but anyway... not much comments on this competition... both are already winners before the finals... doesnt really matter the results...

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Hwee Ying's file... so cute!!! 

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Pinky Pin Guan!!! 

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Hungry Ghost Festival is coming to an end soon... so nice... dun have to keep scaring myself already... haha... watched "the maid" with dear last sun... its a bit scary... actualli the story isnt the scary one... its the way they film the movie tat makes it seem scary... and of coz sound effect plays an impt role...

just came back from the hungry ghost festival event... duno if its consider an event... but its those function whereby everyone gathers to have a 6 course dinner... & there's always a stage... "qi yue ge tai" tat singers perform or sing for the ghost... but to me... it liven up the event... at least its not tat boring... still can hear some nice songs down there... some ppl do sing very well... just tat they are not considered"superstar" or didnt wanna join sg idol!!! humble ppl!!!

its quite fun to sit there n watch ppl bid the things... quite interesting... thou i tink its a bit boring initialli... started to play bejeweled on dear's palm... tink the highlight of the event is the auction part... ppl bringing up the prices for the goods... and simple things like some cakes can bid up to 100 dollars... becoz those ppl think tat by bringing the goods back... it brings with them gd luck for the yr... and of coz these goods are of significant meanings... and the crucial person is the person who is shouting for the bid... the MC i shall say... to liven up the mood... & to turn the things to gd things... by saying all the lucky lucky words... & linking things tat have no significant meaning to become sth tat has some meaning... by just adding the word "fa" = luck!!!

dear's dad bidded a piggy bank for his mum... we saw tat the very 1st moment we went into the place... intending to bid it... but since his dad wants it... shall let him have it... and its for his mum... can see his mum grinning happily... xin fu de auntie...

dear bidded a "shou xin gong" for his parents... stands for longevity... my dear is forever so filial... he also bidded for this nice statue... but i forgot what its call liao... sth tat has got to do with geomacy... too chim le... hehe... (absent minded then admit la!!!)

everything seems normal btw me & dear... thou' i may have some prob with his family too... esp his mum... but i shall survive till the very last breathe... dun believe i cant survive thru the next 6 yrs... since his ex can do it for 6 yrs... n decided to give up in the 7th yr... but i hope by the 7th yr... we're already happily married... but will there even be the day???

why shd i be so afraid of his mum? i still have to face her... unless i dun ever wanna appear in front of her... which is quite possible... but i'll try not to see her so often... now... her impression in my mind is... a witch!!! this witch seems harmless in front of me... but behind me... she maybe the one who's trying to break us up... or doing sth behind my back to stop me & dear from tog... to control dear's life... but how long more can she do tat? i tink dear has to grow up... not trying to ask him to be disobedient... but i tink he has his own thinking... wat to do & wat not to do... what has to be done & what's not... he noes himself more than anyone ard him... he noes what he realli need... im not gonna say much... but i wont be subdued by her... im gonna take up this challenge...

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hai~ after 15 min... still no fish... balek kampong!!! time to go back for dinner... 

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where is my fish???  

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happen to saw this person fishing using a big fishing net... tink its quite peaceful to lead this kinda lifestyle... 

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