Saturday, February 06, 2010
I wanna bitch abt my proposal... yupz... I've got the diamond that I wante... 0.5 carat, F color Polaris Ice from Soo Kee... Maybe many ppl will envy me... but I realli duno if this shd be sth to be happy about... or this is just the beginning of my new life... or prob the ending of everything...
How I got my Polaris...it doesnt come easy... coz dear does not have much $$... so for him to spend so much $$ to buy me the diamond of my dream... is realli not easy... thanks dear for everything... hope this is not too much for u to bear...
but the whole thing abt this proposal... is not the ideal proposal tat i always wanted... sweet... lovely... romantic... even if its juz a simple dinner... and some surprising old gimmicks that every guy has used before... it doesnt matter... juz a gd and unforgettable one will do...
However, the whole thing is in a messed... and right now... I do not know if we're realli getting married... firstly, he told me that he has no $$ to buy me 0.5 carat one... and will substitute it with a crystal one... but then the ring tat I received was a plastic one from Chameleon... worth $6.90... I was very disappointed becoz I tried my best to give him the best that I could, but I hate to believe that this is the best he could offer me... and its the incorrect size... so... cannt wear... and it wasn't for me to wear... juz for me to keep... so will u keep it???
probably this sounds like a brillant idea to disappoint me at 1st, then gife the real one to make me happier... but nah~not true... all that disappointment showed on my face has disappointed him as well... and the disappointment he received from me was much more than the disappointment I had in him.... he's utterly disappointed that value of the gift is very important to me... and maybe he tot tat finalli he saw my true colors... and that he is giving 2nd tot about our marriage... supposed to be a happi moment... and it became moment of silence, moments of disappointment, moments of regrets... moments of arguments... moments of much unhapiness...
Now, Im beginning to get worried that everything, including our r/s will soon be a history... and all that I am holding onto now will be just another dream...
we promise to forget all these... I am trying... and it doesnt hurt me so much anymore after 1 wk... thats why I finalli decided to blog abt it... and I'm not sure if he feels the same way... if he could forgive and forget... I couldn't really forget that this proposal affects us so much... and suppose to be a brillant idea became a test to our r/s...
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