Sunday, September 05, 2010
Got so much to say recently... I realised I'm v emotional nowadays... Have I grown weaker instead of stronger? I was complaining to one of my colleague about it and tears actually start rolling down... why??? I'm not too sure abt it also... Whatever it is, I told myself I should not be affected by her anymore... I'll just do my job well, and progress and excel in whatever ways... OMG... can't believe it...
Met up with my ex colleagues last Friday... Dinner at Shokudu, and beer at (I duno whats the name of the bar)... its just opp chijmes, in raffles city itself... Haven drank for very long... and I just love the smooth feeling of Kilkenny... oops... Dear is so pissed when he found out that I drank Kilkenny... coz its sounds like "Kill Kenny"... lol... oh~ I didnt mean to kill u...
Sometimes, its feels gd not to be too "sober"... I finally know why ppl leave the company... for the better? or for the worse... I've been asking myself why are they leaving??? But now, I'm also considering to leave... After hearing many stories abt how ppl get cheated... I think so far I've not been cheated yet... Maybe I will someday... But those who chose to leave seems to be happier now... that those why chose to stay (like myself), feels sadder and sadder each day...
They were the ones who fought with me ever since I joined the company in May 2008... how times flies and I'm now into my 3rd year of the job... They were the ones whom I used to fight with, pick up quarrels and at the end of the day, we're still gd frenz... Couples should not work tog, gd frenz shd not work tog... I miss working with u guys... Really... the new comers just cannot fight at all...
Nowadays, I seldom fight with ppl... Have I lost my fighting spirit??? Or my fighting spirit had left with them...
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Feed her Sugar....# ;
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Been very depressed recently... I'm also not sure why I am so affected by her... But I dreaded going to work... and I have to drag my feet to walk into office... I don't want to face her... dun wanna hear her voice... I simply just hate it...
My boss have been saying... look at her strong pts, dun always look at her weak pts... Got to help her becoz I'm more capable... but when I needed help, who is there to help me??? I can't stand ppl who are selfish, always care about themselves, self-centered, no team spirit... But why are we still keeping her when all of us feel that she's extra... Yes, one more person means one more pair of hands, but those hands aren't helping much... and most of the time, we have to solve her problems for her... Not only dislike her, she's affecting the department, affecting my progress, and affecting other department... almost everyone dislike her... so why???
What is the worst senario? It's to ask her to leave and we (the 2 of us) have to cover her job? Boss won't get someone else to come in? But what if I am the one who choose to leave? Can the 2 of them cover my job? Boss will definitely get someone in to replace me... What difference does it makes?
Everyone of us always feels that the grass on the other side is greener... The moon on the opp side is rounder... I agree that this is not always true... We will not know unless I get to the other side...But this is a risk... Risking myself to move on to the other side and hoping that the grass will be greener... If I found out that its not as green as what I think, then move on again... I believe I am still young, and is willing to learn... It shouldn't be that tough to find a new job...
But on the other hand, if I decided to leave... all the effort that I have put in will go down to the drain... Is it really worth it??? Should I stay or should I move on?
Although I have decided to stay for the time being... to achieve what I wanna achieve... to achieve my aim before I move on... I shall tolerate for the next 6 months and see how it goes... I really hate to be in this situation... I will stand firm that I will not help her unless needed... and if the no one is doing anything to salvage the situation... I'll move on... Since everyone feels that she deserve another chance, and then another chance, and then another chance... I'm not giving her anymore chances..
I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT!!! Just bit my lips and hang on...
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Feed her Sugar....# ;
